Angel Tarot Guidance

It has been my intention for several weeks to come along and update this blog... but you will be able to tell by the gap in dates that I never managed to get round to it! Boo hoo... So here I am now, better late than never I guess!

It has been quite a crazy period for myself and for my family, with many things going on all at the same time which includes my father being diagnosed as terminally ill, with a very short prognosis. This has hit us, the family, like a brick...as i'm sure news like that would hit any other family. I have learned so many things in these past 2 months about myself and my family, some good & some bad.

The emotions which I have experienced are just too great in depth for me to explain here or articulate. I have cried in so many ways and shed tears in utter silence... something I never knew was possible.

My greatest fear has come to face me dead on... how will I cope without my parents? I thought I had done all my growing up by reaching the legal age of consent for most things and being able to vote etc... but for me, the thought of no longer having the support and reassurance of your parents face to face on a daily basis, seems more apparent to me as the point at which I have to grow up. This is the time where you truly do have to become self reliant and where you discover what you are truly made of.

I didn't know I had such strength within me!

The saying 'Once an adult, twice a child' rings so true. It is tough to be very suddenly placed in a position where you have become the carer and your father, your dependent, especially when it is 20 or 30 years too soon.

Life is short and very precious. To know that you only have limited time changes your perception drastically. I try to live in the moment and make each minute count, but this present experience just reinforces my beliefs... as hard as it is to cope with and as much as I wish it wasn't happening to us... it is and there is nothing I nor anyone else can do to change that.

So live, love, laugh, be free and treasure each and every special moment you have with those that you love.

Angel xx